Wednesday, June 27, 2012

I survived

Quite a while ago I wrote about feeling like I was a big fat faker for putting the "I survived PPD" and "I survived Postpartum PTSD" badges on the side of my blog (you can read that post here). Today I feel like I totally deserve those.
The PTSD feels all but gone. Of course I have moments - few and far between, where I am triggered by something and it really catches me off guard, but for the most part, I feel very successful in that area. The PPD is also seemingly a lot better. I'm starting to realize that its not PPD that makes me stressed or frustrated or whatever it is that I may be feeling. Its that I'm a mom to a 20 month old who loves to do his job and push boundries. I'm pretty sure that what I feel is on the verge of normal.
I feel happy when things are going well and we are having fun as a family. I feel frustrated when Gregory throws a tantrum about something I can't control. Sometimes I feel like I just need a break and some time to myself. All normal for a mom.
I finally feel like the badges about surviving are legit. I earned those. It was a lot of work, but I did it.
Go. Me. :)

2 comments:

  1. I so get all that you are saying - my almost 20 month olds push me into such extreme highs and lows everyday that until I get away for half a day and get some yoga or alone time - I forget what is normal! Thanks for sharing!

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