That's me. I have no idea why but I am not able to cry. I'm frustrated, I'm sad, I'm confused and all I want to do is have a freaking good cry but I can't! It's so irritating. I have no idea why - it's not like I've ever had issues with crying before, trust me.
I feel like the world is moving around me and I'm stuck. I'm still and as much as I want to move and be a part of life I'm in this invisible space where no one really see's me, no one really hears me and I'm begging some higher power to help me move my feet so I can join society. And the tears won't come.
I have no plan. I feel that I've tried to do all that I can and that I am trying all I know to try. Oh, and I'm also planning on not watching TLC's shows about how people die anymore. I know, I know, you're saying "Why would you watch that?". Well, it's interesting to see how they figure out how someone died when it's not obvious. It's interesting until you discover a girl died from peritonitis because she didn't get to the hospital in time. Not. Cool. So I turned that show off never to be watched again.
So today, being a holiday, we are off to the children's museum where I am hoping for some distraction from this feeling of loneliness and frustration and to distract myself from the poor girl who died from something I had.